Long nights wind and twist upward into fulfilling dreams.

But like everything in this

dimension,

there is always an end.

At the climax of those long nights,

flowers may be planted, but likewise,

flowers may be crushed.

With every risky venture there can never be

an expected outcome, but

I promise you dear,

the outcome is the silhouetted

truth,

and what becomes of it, will reflect

om your relationship with this

dimension.

Don't fret, a rainbow will cast glory soon.

-Sam Visu

"when I am working on a problem I never think about beauty. i only think about how to solve the problem. But when the solution in not beautiful, I know it's wrong."

-Buckminster Fuller

Madrugadas.

Lucid nights seem to carry me on.

Unlocked doors

and

Street lights led you in.

Stairs leading to

Our fate

Were the anticipators of those

Lovely evenings,

And my bed is where

The most magical of events

Inhaled rose scented stories.

Two hearts beating near.

Two bodies making art, painting a mural.

Two voices singing in

The universal choir,

Two sounds fulfill the air, music to my ears.

This forbidden love was too big

or the both of us,

Music soon morfed to static

Once we turned the dial forward,

And there was no more room for

Trust.

-Sam Visu

What's new.

It's been some time since I've posted anything here, once again because of the difficulty to get access of the internet. We didn't get any internet into this house that we've recently moved into until yesterday, so there is a lot of catching up to do!

On Monday I made probably the biggest impulsive act that I have ever had. I was at my boyfriends tattoo studio, and his friend's girlfriend was there too, so we started talking about everything and anything. Then she started telling about the school that she goes to which is about 5 blocks away from the studio. She began to tell me all these marvelous things about it and how it is an arts school and everyone can choose the artistic career they chose once they enter 3rd semester (which in the United States is Junior year in high school). I was barely staring 3rd semester at another school, but there was no way that I was going to miss the opportunity of signing myself up at this new school.

So what I did was call my parents to ask if I could switch, and naturally, they said, "Hell no," but that wasn't going to stop me from chasing my dreams. I went to the school anyways to sign myself up, and one thing that I love about Mexico is that we don't need a signature from our parents to enroll in high school! I signed up, and handed them the starting fee, which was money that I was saving up for my next tattoo. They told me that I start the next day, which was Tuesday, and I accepted.

Well, my parents were furious, but they got over it now, and I'm going to the school of my choice to pursue my goal. (:

The message is: never let anyone or anything stand in your way of doing what you think is right, and if an opportunity stands before you, seize it because you may never see it again.

Dream last night #2

I dreamt again last night, and although it wasn't as lucid as I hoped it to be, I know I've had this dream before. In the dream, it seems as if I slept over at my grandmas house. As i walked down the hallway at her house, my grandparents were in the living room talking. They told me that it was my mother's birthday today and that there must be some reason to why she didnt want to come. So I grabbed my things and my best friend, Liz was outside. It seemed as if we were in Mexico, but it seemed way more like Europe. Anyways, I've had this place in my dreams before. The street floors were stones, the buildings were also from stone, and everything was very colonial. Me and Liz decided to hi-jack a trolley, and we were successful. But there was a man in a dark car telling us to pull over, so we came up with a plan : I was going to pull the trolley closer to the driver, and Liz was going to jump into his window and eat him. The plan was successful, and we kept rolling along until we randomely stoped in from of this deserted building.

Dream last night.

So I dreamt quite lucidly last night, well half of it was lucid.
The first dream I remember, was set in a classroom. I walked in the room looking stunning, and this boy that I've had a crush on (in real life) since 7th grade, Johnny, came up to me mesmerized and innocent-like and asked me sincerely to kiss him. I had to say no because I've liked him for a long time, and I didn't want to get attached because I knew he was a womanizer. I said, "I can't just kiss you right now. Show me you care", and he accepted the challenge and sadly walked away. While this whole thing was happening with johnny, there was background music, Breaking Even by The Script. As I walked on to my seat, another, more homely boy who has barely been with a girl and respects them more than anything came up to me and asked me for a kiss, and I guess all my consciousness flew out the window because this was still in the same classroom that Johnny asked me for a kiss. I said yes to this boy, and I kissed him, because I knew I wouldn't feel anything for him afterwards, and I felt a sort of pity and respect for him at the same time. This happened, and I walked out of the classroom as if I didn't need to go to class. Afterwards, I felt as if, maybe Johnny saw me kiss this other boy. I started to panic and look for Johnny to give some explanation or apology or reassurance;and with this sure enough, I fell for him a little more. I never found him.

The next dream didn't really have me in it. There are parts that I don't remember, but they can be filled in by things said in the other parts. So I guess there was this woman who did ballet. She had a child, a girl, who also did ballet. The woman fell in love with a famous ballet instructor, and they dated for a couple of months, until he got to know her daughter. He started to help out in the daughter's ballet classes, and discovered how great she was and could be, so he ignored the woman and started to take time on the girl. She was outraged and cried and screamed to the man, crying out that she only used him, while he took her daughter once again to practice for a recital, while the girl only just shed a tear and left with him, almost dragging her.

I wondered what these dreams could have meant, so I looked up key objects and subjects that were in these dreams.

First of all, there is a classroom:

To dream that you are in a classroom, indicates that you are learning an important life lesson. Alternatively, it symbolizes personal growth. You are learning something about yourself.

Then, there are classmates:

To see old classmates in your dream, indicate that you need to draw on your old associations with your former classmates to gain insight in some current relationship. It represents a past lesson that you have learned and is applicable in some aspect of your waking life now.

Then this self of courage:

To dream that you have great courage, indicates that you are willing to confront rejected aspects of your unconscious head on. You are about to come to a whole new understanding. The dream may be training you for what you need to do in your waking life.

Then there's the crush:

If you dream that somebody has a crush on you, then it represents you own sense of worthiness and esteem.

To dream about a former crush, refers to a particular period in your life and what you were feeling then. Perhaps a waking relationship is repeating the same pattern.

To dream that you have a crush on somebody, is a literal reflection of your attraction and fascination for that person. To see your crush in your dream, represents your current infatuation with him or her. If you find yourself thinking about him during the day, then it is not surprising that his image will appear in your dream during the night. If you dream of your crush frequently, then your dream maybe be telling you that it is time to let this person know how you feel, especially if you are dreaming of him or her in a good way. Only good things can happen from you telling your crush. Even if he or she is not interested, at least you can move on and stop wasting time on him or her.

The song:

To hear harmonious and soothing music in your dream, signifies prosperity and pleasure. You are expressing your emotions in a positive way. Music serves to heal the soul.

The kiss:

To dream of a kiss, denotes love, affection, tranquility, harmony, and contentment.

If you are kissing a close friend, then it represents your respect and adoration for your friend. You are seeking some intimate closeness that is lacking in some waking relationship. It may or may not signify a romantic interest for him or her.

Rejection/refusal:

To dream that you are refusing something, suggests that you are in denial about something. Consider what you are refusing. Alternatively, the dream may be a pun on "refuse" or trash. Is there some aspect or characteristic that you are rejecting?

To dream that you are rejecting something, indicates that there is some aspect of your life that you want to be rid of. It may be some failing situation. Alternatively, you are refusing to accept a situation that is being imposed and forced upon you

The regret afterwards:

To dream about regret, indicates that you are preoccupied with waking disappointments and dissatisfaction. These could be repressed or negative feelings about yourself. The feelings you have in your dream are usually reflective of what you are feeling in real life, but you may not be expressing them appropriately.

Looking for him:

To dream that you are searching for something, signifies the need to find something that is missing or needed in your life. The dream may be analogous to your search for love, spiritual enlightenment, peace or even a solution to a problem.

So now there is the second dream.

The subject of ballet:

To dream that you are watching a ballet, symbolizes balance, cooperation, and harmony.

To see or wear ballet slippers in your dream, represents your understanding of the principles of balance and grace. You carry yourself with much poise and get along well with others.

The couple was in love:

To see a couple in love or expressing love to each other, indicates success ahead for you.

Then there is the woman crying:

To see someone else crying in your dream, may be a projection of your own feelings onto someone else. If you do not cry in your waking life, then seeing someone else cry may be a little easier to deal with then seeing yourself cry.

These were people that I did not know:

To see people you don't know in your dream, denotes hidden aspects of yourself that you need to confront or acknowledge

Ballerinas:
To dream that you are a ballerina, suggests that you are moving through the obstacles of your life effortlessly. You feel unrestricted. It is also a symbol of innocence, frailty, and vulnerability. Alternatively, you may feel unable to attain and measure up to society's ideals of beauty.

The little girl:

To see children in your dream, signify an aspect of yourself and your childlike qualities. You may be retreating back to a childlike state and longing for the past. You are trying to still satisfy repressed desires and unfulfilled hopes. Perhaps there is something that you need to see grow and nurture. Take some time off and cater to the inner child within. Alternatively, the dream may be highlighting your innocence, purity, simplicity, and carefree attitude.

To dream that you are watching children but they do not know you are there, is a metaphor for some hidden knowledge or some latent talent which you have failed to recognize.

Overall, I'm satisfied with my results, so now it's time to fix some aspects in my life. (:

I'm deciding to write something new today.
It's something different, so I hope this all goes well!
I'm doing a novel on a boy who moves to a new town by leaving his dad and school.

It's about his adventure to find his calling, something that all of us, if not most of us are looking for.

Let's go Abel(:

Cliches.

Cliches, they are all around us, whether it's no billboards, cereal boxes, or the nearest fast-food restaurant. You hear them all day