Chapters.

Time To Start A New Chapter in My Life.

I'm Now Currently Living In Aguascalientes, Mexico.,

And Believe Me, It Was The Quickest Huge Decision I Ever Made In My Life!

I Only Had 2 Days To Think About It, And Right Away I Said Yes, I Have To Do This.

This Is The Biggest Change I've Ever Had To Make, And Im Gonna Make The Best Of It(:

Im Living In This Huge House All By Myself, And I'm Thinking About Redecorating Hahaha(:

So Im Thinking About Videotaping My Adventures Here, And That Should Be Fun!

So Long Tucson, I've Found A New Temporary Home(:

<3

-Sam Visu.

Inspiration.

So I Thought I Needed An Update On What Styles And Fashoin Inspire The Way I Dress
Because The Old Inspiration Post That I Posted Is Kinda Old.

I Threw Out All Of My Clothes, And Bought A Whole New ClosetFull Of Clothes(:
I Know That I Havent Posted Any Actual Pictures Of Me,
Thats Cuz My Parents Left Me Here Without A Camera/:

Sooo Ill Try To Buy A New One To Take Pictures(:
This Is What Inspired My New Wardrobe(:

Paris.

So Ive Been Thinking So Very Hard About This, My Future.

Perhaps I'll Move To Paris

Because I Know That I Desire To Move To Europe After College,

I Just Don't Know Where To?

Paris(:

Im Thinking About How It'll Be With My Own Townhouse Or Apartment,

Whatever It Will Be,

With My Own Room That I Can Write Until The Day Is Done,

Then Wake In The Dawn And Continue..

Just Write All Day.,

And Perhaps Teach Classes.

Sounds Dreammy<3

-Sam Visu.

Thingss To Do Today:

1. Make Someone Smile
2. Make Someone Laugh
3. Make Someone Cry (Out Of Too Much Laughter)
4. Tell Someone 'I Love You'
5. Find A Flower, Let I Know How Beautiful It Is.
6. Look A Friend In The Eye, Tell Him/Her 'Thank You For Being A Part Of My Life'
7. Think Of Something To Write For #7
8. Be Awesome

Cry Baby.

UGH.
Fuck My Life.
I Feel Like Crying.
But I Know That I Cannot.
Why Must People Be So Damn Mean?
I Want To Go Home, Sit In My Room And Stay There.
I Don't Deserve Anything.
I Don't Deserve Anybody.
Mabey I Should Turn Back And Watch Myself Bleed.
But I Cannot Bcause I Am Not That Person Anymore.
There Must Be Some Other Way.
I Want To Cry.
I Want Somebody To Hug Me.
But There Is Nobody.
And I Am Alone.
Just Me And My Loneliness.
I Cannot Bear This Any Longer.
Help Me..

-Sam Visu.

The Hills.

I Know That The Finale Of The Hills Was Two Days Ago,
I Just Haven't Thought About Posting Anything About It Here.

Ahh! I Cannot Believe That It's The End! For The Last Four Years Of My Life I've Watched That Show And Its Like I Don't Know What I'm Gonna Do! What Am I Going To Watch Now (Besides The Office)?! Wow, I Seem A Little Over Dramatic, But I Loved That Show:/

What Reallllyyyy Set Me Off At The End, Was When Kristin Was Heading Off To Europe After Talking to Brody! So The Car Turns, And The Backdrp Behind Brody Moves, The Cameras Zoom Out, And You See The WHOLE SET Being Dismantled By The Crew And Kristing Comes Out Of The Car To Hug Brody Because Of The Wrap!!! WHAT THE HELL?! I Was Like All Sad And Tearing Up Because It Was The End, And Then BAMM!! It Hits You In The Face!! The WHOLE Thing Was Fake?! I'm So Terribly Confused): Here's The Clip:

Wishlist.

Ahh, There Is So Much That I Am Fancying For At The Moment, Which Is Frankly, Very Odd Because I Find Myself Not Wanting Very Much. I Feel Like These Are The Only Two Things That I NEED To Have At The Moment. Its Like Being Dehydrated.








First Of All, I Very Much Would Like To Buy Myself The Legendary Diana Lomography Camera. It Shoots The Most Dreamy And Vintage Like Photos And They Come Out Amazing! This Exacctly What I Need To Cut Out That Unbearably Bland Part Of My Life. Say Cheese!(:




Secondly, I Am Wanting To Buy Myself A New
Pair Of Boots. Not Just Any Girly Boots That You
Would Think About. But Some Boots Borderline Combat Boots. They Are Dr. Martens Boots. Haha, No, Not An Actual Doctor, Dr. Martens Is The Brand. And I Adore Them! They Might Not Be All So Very Cute, But They Are Bold, And In My Humble Opinion, Beautiful. And That Is What I'm Striving For.

-Sam Visu.

{JUMP}

Wardrobe Malfunction.

In My Humble Opinion,

People That Aren't Happy With Their Lives,

Aren't Getting Enough Of The Posibilities That Life Can Bring Them.

Your Life is Like Your Outfit Of The Day.

You Choose What Yuh Want To Wear.

Something Fun, Something Bland, Mabey Provocative, Simple, Or Elegant.

Whichever Yuh Choose May Change Yuhr Outlook On Yuhr Enviroment.

So Yuh Have To Choose What Kind Of Life That Yuh Want To Lead Everyday,

Just Like What Yuh Choose To Wear Everyday.

If Yuh Aren't Happy With Yuhr Life,

Don't Sit There Feeling Sorry For Yuhrself.

Go And Change The Life Yuh Live.

-Love And Rockets,

Sam Visu.

Beware Of Poets

For They

Tell

The Prettiest Of

Lies.

♥

Only When The Blue Jay Sings

Is When I Think Of It.

The It That Is You

& The Song That Is Forever.

The Song That Is My Heart

& The Blue Jay That Is My Soul.

<3

-Sam Visu.

Conversation.

Andrea:
Whats wrong babe?


Me:
Ugh, Stupid $%&^*$.
Well, He Lost Feelingss For Me Cuz Im Gone.
And It Feels Like Crap, Yuh Know?
I Mean, Its Not My Fault.
And That Day That We Went To Go Hang Out,
I Gave Up ALOT Of Things Just To Be Able To See Him.
And It Feels Like I Did It All For Nothing..



Andrea:
Agh babe damn im so sorry :(
he told you that he did?like straight up?
Well if he gave up that easy hes not worth it babe
seriosuly its only been like what 2 weeks?
Hes a douch than...and doesnt deserve you/
Theres plenty of other guys that would love to wait for
you Sam believe me!!!!
You just have to wait for them...
And believe me a guy like him is a dime a dozen!
Just dont let it get to you babe
I lahhhh youu mijjaaaa!
& of you need anything im always here


Me:
Yes, He Told Me Strait Up.
Cuz I Asked, Cuz It Seemed Obvious That He Didnt.
What Just Gets Me Down Was That He Wass Perfect So It Seemed To Me.
I Sacrificed SO Much To Just Spend A Couple Of Hours With Him,
And It Sorta Just Blew Up In My Face.
I Dont Want Plenty Of Other Guys Anymore,
I Dont Want To Be With Guy After Guy Cuz It Sickens Me.
Being With Guy After Guy Is Like Eating From Everybody Elses Plate.,
And I Want To Eat From My Own Plate For Once!!
And I Know That I Wont Find The One.
It Doesnt Matter How Many Times Somebody Tells Me I Will, Cuz I Wont.
I Lahh Yuh Mijaa!
And I Wont Let Something As Cruel As This Bring Me Down.<3>

Goes To Show That No Matter What,
Yuhr Best Friends Will Always Stuck Up For Yuh When Boys Dont.

Sometimes, It Takes A While to Find Inspiration..
And Currently, I Cannot Find Anything.
All I Can Feel Is Homesickness.
All i Can Think Of Is How Much I Miss Him.
But That Wont Change Anything,
Because My Parents Arent Merciful,
And They Wont Let Me Go Back.
Anxiety Taking Over Me.
HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!