Dream last night #2

I dreamt again last night, and although it wasn't as lucid as I hoped it to be, I know I've had this dream before. In the dream, it seems as if I slept over at my grandmas house. As i walked down the hallway at her house, my grandparents were in the living room talking. They told me that it was my mother's birthday today and that there must be some reason to why she didnt want to come. So I grabbed my things and my best friend, Liz was outside. It seemed as if we were in Mexico, but it seemed way more like Europe. Anyways, I've had this place in my dreams before. The street floors were stones, the buildings were also from stone, and everything was very colonial. Me and Liz decided to hi-jack a trolley, and we were successful. But there was a man in a dark car telling us to pull over, so we came up with a plan : I was going to pull the trolley closer to the driver, and Liz was going to jump into his window and eat him. The plan was successful, and we kept rolling along until we randomely stoped in from of this deserted building.

Dream last night.

So I dreamt quite lucidly last night, well half of it was lucid.
The first dream I remember, was set in a classroom. I walked in the room looking stunning, and this boy that I've had a crush on (in real life) since 7th grade, Johnny, came up to me mesmerized and innocent-like and asked me sincerely to kiss him. I had to say no because I've liked him for a long time, and I didn't want to get attached because I knew he was a womanizer. I said, "I can't just kiss you right now. Show me you care", and he accepted the challenge and sadly walked away. While this whole thing was happening with johnny, there was background music, Breaking Even by The Script. As I walked on to my seat, another, more homely boy who has barely been with a girl and respects them more than anything came up to me and asked me for a kiss, and I guess all my consciousness flew out the window because this was still in the same classroom that Johnny asked me for a kiss. I said yes to this boy, and I kissed him, because I knew I wouldn't feel anything for him afterwards, and I felt a sort of pity and respect for him at the same time. This happened, and I walked out of the classroom as if I didn't need to go to class. Afterwards, I felt as if, maybe Johnny saw me kiss this other boy. I started to panic and look for Johnny to give some explanation or apology or reassurance;and with this sure enough, I fell for him a little more. I never found him.

The next dream didn't really have me in it. There are parts that I don't remember, but they can be filled in by things said in the other parts. So I guess there was this woman who did ballet. She had a child, a girl, who also did ballet. The woman fell in love with a famous ballet instructor, and they dated for a couple of months, until he got to know her daughter. He started to help out in the daughter's ballet classes, and discovered how great she was and could be, so he ignored the woman and started to take time on the girl. She was outraged and cried and screamed to the man, crying out that she only used him, while he took her daughter once again to practice for a recital, while the girl only just shed a tear and left with him, almost dragging her.

I wondered what these dreams could have meant, so I looked up key objects and subjects that were in these dreams.

First of all, there is a classroom:

To dream that you are in a classroom, indicates that you are learning an important life lesson. Alternatively, it symbolizes personal growth. You are learning something about yourself.

Then, there are classmates:

To see old classmates in your dream, indicate that you need to draw on your old associations with your former classmates to gain insight in some current relationship. It represents a past lesson that you have learned and is applicable in some aspect of your waking life now.

Then this self of courage:

To dream that you have great courage, indicates that you are willing to confront rejected aspects of your unconscious head on. You are about to come to a whole new understanding. The dream may be training you for what you need to do in your waking life.

Then there's the crush:

If you dream that somebody has a crush on you, then it represents you own sense of worthiness and esteem.

To dream about a former crush, refers to a particular period in your life and what you were feeling then. Perhaps a waking relationship is repeating the same pattern.

To dream that you have a crush on somebody, is a literal reflection of your attraction and fascination for that person. To see your crush in your dream, represents your current infatuation with him or her. If you find yourself thinking about him during the day, then it is not surprising that his image will appear in your dream during the night. If you dream of your crush frequently, then your dream maybe be telling you that it is time to let this person know how you feel, especially if you are dreaming of him or her in a good way. Only good things can happen from you telling your crush. Even if he or she is not interested, at least you can move on and stop wasting time on him or her.

The song:

To hear harmonious and soothing music in your dream, signifies prosperity and pleasure. You are expressing your emotions in a positive way. Music serves to heal the soul.

The kiss:

To dream of a kiss, denotes love, affection, tranquility, harmony, and contentment.

If you are kissing a close friend, then it represents your respect and adoration for your friend. You are seeking some intimate closeness that is lacking in some waking relationship. It may or may not signify a romantic interest for him or her.

Rejection/refusal:

To dream that you are refusing something, suggests that you are in denial about something. Consider what you are refusing. Alternatively, the dream may be a pun on "refuse" or trash. Is there some aspect or characteristic that you are rejecting?

To dream that you are rejecting something, indicates that there is some aspect of your life that you want to be rid of. It may be some failing situation. Alternatively, you are refusing to accept a situation that is being imposed and forced upon you

The regret afterwards:

To dream about regret, indicates that you are preoccupied with waking disappointments and dissatisfaction. These could be repressed or negative feelings about yourself. The feelings you have in your dream are usually reflective of what you are feeling in real life, but you may not be expressing them appropriately.

Looking for him:

To dream that you are searching for something, signifies the need to find something that is missing or needed in your life. The dream may be analogous to your search for love, spiritual enlightenment, peace or even a solution to a problem.

So now there is the second dream.

The subject of ballet:

To dream that you are watching a ballet, symbolizes balance, cooperation, and harmony.

To see or wear ballet slippers in your dream, represents your understanding of the principles of balance and grace. You carry yourself with much poise and get along well with others.

The couple was in love:

To see a couple in love or expressing love to each other, indicates success ahead for you.

Then there is the woman crying:

To see someone else crying in your dream, may be a projection of your own feelings onto someone else. If you do not cry in your waking life, then seeing someone else cry may be a little easier to deal with then seeing yourself cry.

These were people that I did not know:

To see people you don't know in your dream, denotes hidden aspects of yourself that you need to confront or acknowledge

Ballerinas:
To dream that you are a ballerina, suggests that you are moving through the obstacles of your life effortlessly. You feel unrestricted. It is also a symbol of innocence, frailty, and vulnerability. Alternatively, you may feel unable to attain and measure up to society's ideals of beauty.

The little girl:

To see children in your dream, signify an aspect of yourself and your childlike qualities. You may be retreating back to a childlike state and longing for the past. You are trying to still satisfy repressed desires and unfulfilled hopes. Perhaps there is something that you need to see grow and nurture. Take some time off and cater to the inner child within. Alternatively, the dream may be highlighting your innocence, purity, simplicity, and carefree attitude.

To dream that you are watching children but they do not know you are there, is a metaphor for some hidden knowledge or some latent talent which you have failed to recognize.

Overall, I'm satisfied with my results, so now it's time to fix some aspects in my life. (:

I'm deciding to write something new today.
It's something different, so I hope this all goes well!
I'm doing a novel on a boy who moves to a new town by leaving his dad and school.

It's about his adventure to find his calling, something that all of us, if not most of us are looking for.

Let's go Abel(:

Cliches.

Cliches, they are all around us, whether it's no billboards, cereal boxes, or the nearest fast-food restaurant. You hear them all day

The Riddle of Epicurus

If God is willing to prevent evil, but is not able to

Then He is not omnipotent.

If He is able, but not willing

Then He is malevolent.

If He is both able and willing

Then whence cometh evil?

If He is neither able nor willing

Then why call Him God?

Missing without leave.

Since I've been gone, I haven't posted any pictures that I've taken since then. Here's a little something to fill you in. I will take many more as in a few days I will get my new cameras. Yes, I love the light leaks effect that cameras give hahah.

This is no once upon a time, this is the near future.

There will be a boy, his name will be Jerome, and he will be the saviour to the freedom of our children's children.

The skies will warp brilliant sage, and crows will tower amongst turtle doves to caress the clouds while they clash to remain afloat above our heads.

Ants will form stronger unions and bee's will come out of hiding.

All while Jerome and his army of millions overthrow the assumed power of the New World Order. Make our children strong, you never know which free soul will be our Jerome.

-Sam Visu

The view right now

So I'm sitting outside feeling inspired, but nothing comes to mind. Great.

Here's the view. It's cloudy, and sprinkling, which is great because it's usually hotter than your step sister out here.

I had a dream that half of my head was shaved. What would that mean?

New.

I need to update what I look like at the moment haha. Here you go:

New attic room

My family is now moving to mexico with me, so that means that I no longer have to live in that apartment (which I actually enjoy more than living with my parents), so now I have to live with my family in the house that they've rented. The only upside to this is having my own room to myself. No, not my bedroom, but this house has an attic, and I intend to make that space my own.

Things that I need:

• a huge rug
• empty wine bottles
• a small table
• two chairs
• two sofas
• lots of pillows
• empty soda bottles
• flowers
• old photos
• plastic flowers
• speakers
• creative lights
• tea set
• bookshelf
• a bigger hookah

I know, it seems like a lot to need, but, i already have half of it now, and, I need this to get my creative rivers downstream. Hope to have a successful room!

Time Passes By.

I have just completed a year living in Mexico alone, and I absolutely loved the experience. I got to meet so many new people and got to get to know them and their lives. There are three people that really captured my thoughts.

One, is a girl; she seemed so happy and bubbly at first (it actually seemed annoying at first) but as time went by, I got to know her and her past life with an eating disorder. She still struggles with it, but for the most part it seems that she has decided to follow the healthy eating path. I can see so much in her eyes, the pain, excitement, confusion, aloofness; while others think of her just as extremely ditzy and 'blonde'. I decided during the second semester of school to leave a nice note and some sort of snack to brighten her every day at her desk. I will keep a close eye on her, as I am still worried about her sanity.

Another person who opened my eyes a little more, is one who I never thought would. I first saw him as someone that I would have liked to flirt with on a small scale, but, as I got to know him, my opinion changed. I no longer wanted to flirt or whatever I was thinking, I wanted to know his story, his opinions, I wanted to open his caged mind and let the ghosts of his past haunt my thoughts. Eventually, I got there, and I learned so much more than I hoped. Like-wise, he wanted the same from me, and he also achieved what no other could before, he took this cage of a head and let the birds free. He is now my best friend and we know each other more than anyone knows us.

The last person that I met is an artist, someone I look up to. He looks up to me too, and we rely on each other for ideas, stories, music, etc. He can look into anyone's soul and know if they are any good. He knows a free person when he meets them, and the pricks when he sees them. He is the most intelligent, free, creative, knowing person I know. And I look forward to doing some damage and improvement to this world with him. Together, we can change things for the better and rid the monotone people.

I hope to meet more people like this as my time here continues.

Too Long

Crap, it's been too long since I've written here, I guess Tumblr has taken most of my time, but I want to continue writing here instead. In my next post I will fill you in on what's been new in my life.